I was punched in the face yesterday by an interesting pattern in my life.
OUCH!~and double OUCH!
Because (I allow) the same person to keep triggering me and pushing my buttons, and rather than detach, I got sucked into the emotionally toxic tornado and reacted---
I got frustrated, sad, furious, and sad again. And then really pissed!
I felt like a victim having a hissy-fit slash temper-tantrum.
Know why I was mad?
Another person's values are not the same as mine--and because of this, we each behave in different ways and we each prioritize things differently. And guess what? As I was having my fit, I realized that I was exhibiting the same behavior that had apparently triggered me. Funny how that works.
Now, you may wonder why I don't walk away from this relationship, but sometimes that is just not possible--in which case, the practice of detachment without judgement can come in handy; after all, I want the same from others, right?
Not so easy--especially when I am reacting already--which is definitely not a place of choice . . . (thank you for the opportunity, Universe. I think) . . .
Very often the most difficult relationships can be my best teachers--I know this to be true, but sometimes it just sucks. The good thing is, that after about ten or twenty minutes of reacting and getting myself worked up into a tightly wound knot (I almost threw up!), I caught myself and began to intentionally breathe deep and long.
No coincidence that I just started another 15-day meditation practice and I learned this breathing technique yesterday in the bathtub on DAY ONE: "Quiet Your Mind." The introduction for today read:
The most powerful tool for quieting the mind is the breath. It has the ability to both calm and revive you. By learning to focus on your breath, you become more aware of your total body, and less susceptible to the harrowing effects of life’s stressful situations.
It's totally free! (click to register)
And here is a picture of what was in my package: Kisse's Sweet and Treats.
And then, I went to my super sweet boyfriend's house,
and the lilacs were in full bloom and they smelled like heaven.
Thank you so much, Lord.
Life is god. Good.
My life is amazing.
I love you all!